I asked the Lord into my heart as a little girl. I can remember saying that prayer over and over again, because I was afraid I had somehow said it wrong the time before. I was the youngest of five children and by the time I came along, church was out, but my mom was a Christian and she shared her faith with me.

My faith didn’t really start growing until junior high. I started going on my own to a youth group. I had so many doubts. Not about God, I have always believed in a creator who made me and this world. I just wasn’t sure that Christianity was true. The youth leaders gave me all sorts of books to read. One of them was by Joni Eareckson. What an incredible testimony! By my freshman year of high school, I had committed my life to Jesus Christ. I even got baptized at the E.V. Free church in Arcadia, Ca. (my native state) where my family was then attending.

Trouble was, I still had doubts. I decided to attend a Christian college in hopes of finding some answers to my questions. I chose Westmont in Santa Barbara. That first year of college changed my life. I remember one of my favorite professors saying “there is no true Messianic prophecy.” His words stuck with me as I went home.  He confirmed my doubts.   “I knew I was right.” I thought, “It’s all made up.”

That summer I began reading the assigned scriptures that I skipped during the actual course. I came across Isaiah 53 and Psalm 22:16- “Dogs have surrounded me; a band of evil men has encircled me, they have pierced my hands and my feet.” Written hundreds of years before Roman crucifixion was known in the ancient world, it qualified, in my mind, as a true prophecy.

I wish I could say that I never doubted again; but I had moments of brain fade. My mother’s faith helped me a great deal. Those stories she shared with me as a child took root in my adult life. I can now see Christ in the Passover and throughout the scriptures, just as she can. My mother has since died, but her words live on in me and my music. And, I can finally say that I don’t doubt my faith anymore. I guess I must have said one of those prayers right, because Jesus did come into my heart.

BTW, I transferred out of Westmont (a great school) and eventually graduated from Biola. All you Biola alumns, I hope you like the music!

I am currently living in Tennessee with my husband and daughter. Most of my time is spent homeschooling.

If you have any questions about faith in Jesus, please e-mail me. I might be able to point you to a few helpful scriptures and I can always pray with you